Farewell down, 8 days to go.
It seems a little surreal...my grandparents just stopped by for a minute to say the official "goodbye," and I'm left with this out of body experience. It's almost as if "missionary Jessica" is watching "real time Jessica" go through all the motions, just awaiting "real time Jessica" to catch up to her in the MTC. I'm living two separate lives right now. The one I'm physically in, and the one my mind can't run away from.
Ah. 8 days.
Though I'm thoroughly enjoying my time in St. George this week. LAST WEEK! Janelle and I got right down to studying yesterday when I got back...but then figured we earned a break. She kicked butt and took some names in a few tournaments of ping pong. She blew me out of the water.
So yes, I'm finding time to slow down, and enjoy life now.
Lately, there have been little moments when all I want to do is capture every smile, movement, joke, story, emotion, conversation and keep it in my heart for the rest of my life (especially the next 18 months). Sometimes "real-time Jessica" wants to be anxious about leaving to a strange place for a long time, and in turn gets pretty worked up about spending time with people. In the moment she is with people, she doesn't take time to really enjoy the company she's in! However, I'm allowing "missionary Jessica" all the freedom she wants in taking over.
Result? Quality time spent with those I love.
Thanks to all the friends and family for the support on Sunday! I loved seeing so many familiar faces in one room.
LOVED it.
Ah. 8 days.
Though I'm thoroughly enjoying my time in St. George this week. LAST WEEK! Janelle and I got right down to studying yesterday when I got back...but then figured we earned a break. She kicked butt and took some names in a few tournaments of ping pong. She blew me out of the water.
So yes, I'm finding time to slow down, and enjoy life now.
Lately, there have been little moments when all I want to do is capture every smile, movement, joke, story, emotion, conversation and keep it in my heart for the rest of my life (especially the next 18 months). Sometimes "real-time Jessica" wants to be anxious about leaving to a strange place for a long time, and in turn gets pretty worked up about spending time with people. In the moment she is with people, she doesn't take time to really enjoy the company she's in! However, I'm allowing "missionary Jessica" all the freedom she wants in taking over.
Result? Quality time spent with those I love.
Thanks to all the friends and family for the support on Sunday! I loved seeing so many familiar faces in one room.
LOVED it.
I LOVED hanging out with you these past few days--but I can understand the restlessness you're feeling. Of course you will be more than missed, but I am so excited to hear about your experience in the MTC and then Thailand. I look forward to growing closer to you through you're adventures!
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